see you soon!

on of the hardest moments in stocks thus far was saying bye to J. it's been on my mind for awhile and we'd a great girls' night in last night but somehow you can never really emotionally ready yourself for indefinite separation. indulge my momentary melodrama, it's admittedly uncharacteristic because i generally don't have feelings. while i'd known from the beginning that there's always the inevitable goodbye, i remained deep in denial. so today came and moot court went and as we walked to the tbana like we usually do, we talked about the weather. we talked about christmas, we talked about snowfights. we talked about pre-drinks. we talked about everything except the imminent farewell when we boarded our trains in opposite directions. we lingered at the tbana, letting train after train whizz by before finally accepting that we both had lives to get on with. she's headed home (to her surprise!) and i was headed home, too, to the brick of a PIL textbook that has only been used as a candy tray so far.

it's funny how no one mentioned the pink elephant en route to the tbana and we passed the metal ball that we used to wait for each other at in summer, before it got too cold to wait outdoors, without hiccup. but it was hard to stand on the platform (with N, who, incidentally, i'd to bid farewell to toO!) and know that it was goodbye for now.